Shadeflurry
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Ranks
Kit, Apprentice, Warrior, Queen Names Shadekit, Shadepaw, Shadestream, Shadeflurry Name Meaning Shade- Dark Pelt Flurry- Honor of youngest sister |
Physical Details
Shade is a very small, fluffy black she-cat with some what rounded forest green-eyes and a white left front paw and a greyed muzzle due to age.
Genetic Build:
1/4- ThunderClan~ Body build Smaller percentages: The other clans (Voice Reference: Tara Strong) |
Framework:
Fur Length: Long Height: 7.6 Inches; 19.3 cm Body Build: Semi-Foreign Scars: Left ear lost; neck scars |
Birth Details:
Season of Birth: New-leaf; 2013 Breed/s: Rag doll, American S.H Defects: Stunted Growth Scent: Dry Grass |
Emotional Details
Shade is certainly a very moody and sour cat. She can be very snippy and often times shuts herself out. She is very pessimistic and an introvert to the max.
Physical Statistics:
5/10 - Strength/ Power 5/10 - Speed/ Agility 9/10 - Endurance 7/10 - Hunting 8/10 - Climbing |
Other Statistics:
Personality Type- Untested Trauma- 7/10 |
Negative Traits:
Loner Snippy Pessimistic |
Positive Traits:
Trustworthy Willing Dedicated |
Miscellaneous Details
Personal Details
Age: 272 moons Wanted Position: Doesn't care Talent: Attitude Follower of: Starclan |
Facts
Shade changed her name in honor of her sister, Flurryfreckle Shade always felt as though she had to live up to her mothers legacy Shade despises the fact she looks exactly like Shadowstar She is the last living, and longest living kit of Shadowstar |
Favorites
Prey: Shrew Season: Doesn't Care Sexuality: Heterosexual |
Relationships
Blood Relations
Mother: Shadowstar Father: Thrushflight Mate: Everclaw Daughters: Sugarheart, Rosemarykit, Leopard, Honeybadger, Heartpaw, Fireflypaw Sons: Sonicfury, Ghostpaw, Cleverkit Sisters: Flurryfreckle, Eaglewing, Swanfire, Polarkit,Mistyeyes, Lilyheart, Juniperpaw, Swankit, Finchkit,(Full) Crystalstripe, Silverstrike, Bumbledove, Nightkit (Half) Brothers: Penguinfrost, Owl-leap, Pineclaw, Jaguarpaw, Parsleypaw, Jetpaw, Leapkit,(Full) Flash-heart, Flarefang, Splotchedclaw, Lightningscar, Thunderheart, Flashpaw, Badgerpaw, Talonpaw (Half) |
Quotes
"You're never going to feel whole and you're never going to recover... but at least your scars are a sign of healing over, not falling apart"
Color Pallet and Rank
History
To be added :)
The molly scoffed a little and looked back down to the water, events that had been long buried within her were suddenly being forced back into her, as though each event happened yesterday and she could recite everything without even needing to think about it."You never will know" she said after a moment of silence between her words and Wingstars, shaking her head a bit and allowing her small frame to crumble in on itself as her back shifted and she hunched forward. "You're just as responsible for their deaths as you are responsible for the grass growing" she basically snapped, eyes narrowing as she looked to Wingstar and moved up onto her paws "Whats done is done. No more fighting that it isnt a part of your life because it is. I've been there. I've felt what you've felt and I've bled the same blood you've bled" she exclaimed "Once by the enemy of my clan, the other by the very tom my sister loved. it never gets easier as time passes NO" she emphasized on the last word to keep her attention "no.... you just have to live with it." She sighed and shook her head as Venom and Crowlight came to mind "I loved twice before.. each gentle and caring... but I didn't have a choice in telling them what those other two toms had done to me because the evidence was breathing and clung to my side. But you have the choice to so take it to heart. You're never going to feel whole and you're never going to recover... but at least your scars are a sign of healing over, not falling apart" the molly lifted her paw and dragged it across the scars that banded the entirety of her throat, shaking her head "I too am loved by a tom I hardly know if I love myself.... but I've always felt if I can "love" him back.... maybe.. just maybe... I can learn to love myself and make up for every aspect of my life I've tried to erase. He is patient and kind with me... never asks and only listens. He knows but never speaks of it without my permission..." her gaze finally fell to be gentle, looking up at her with a heavy sigh escaping her "We are both monsters... and there's no doubt about it.... but even monsters want to be loved and feel there's forgiveness.... even if its directed at themselves" the molly began to walk, flicking her tail to indicate she wanted her to follow her as she walked "I was born to one of the most powerful and beloved cats to ever exist. I had 28 siblings by blood and many others by my mothers love." She explained, flattening her ears "When I was an apprentice... I met a tom named Crowflight. It was during a time when natural disasters and we got trapped in camp and he was the first thing i ever experienced love with. Then the water rose and he drowned. I was the idiot who abandoned him in the camp and that's something I now live with. When I became a warrior.. Panthers Gang had become a threat to all the clans and their second in command used me to get revenge against my mother." her eyes darkened "I was the voyage used to get to my mother. That was all cats saw me as. Everyone fails to understand what it feels like to be constantly standing in the shadow of your Mother. To be expected to live up to the greatness she was. None of you know her the way I did, none of you experienced life in the coldness of her shadow as you all looked up to her and down at me. I will never be my Mother and the awful cat she truly was. Believe what you want, stories are meant to be fake." She spat out and continued on, shaking her head as she did "I had his litter and thought life was over... then I met Venom. but I couldn't see past the tom who he was the son of, the very cat that fathered my first litter so I never could be with Venom. But my heart yearned for him until I met Everclaw." she sighed softly "My sister went missing along with many other cats during the times of the caves... and when that happened Dogstar used me to remind himself of her.. so I bore him kits and my sister returned in time to bare him her own. It was a foul time for us.... I felt so used I didn't want to continue anymore. I was always someones revenge plan or being used as someone else. I never got to be my own cat because I was always either Shadowstar or Flurryfreckle and you finally have enough!" she gasped a bit as she felt her voice raise in anger "And.... for so many moons Everclaw stayed with me. Never asking... never pushing.... only ever seeing me as me. I thought it was all a joke. I never let him in, only close enough to look but never touch. That.. that poor foxheart waited over 200 moons just to brush his tail against mine..." she finally stopped and looked back to her ".... Wingstar... don't ever make someone that good wait so long... because they may die and you'll be robbed of what happiness really is. I look at our litter now and I don't need to always be reminded of... of Monster or Dogstar" she said softly and closed her eyes "they're going to always walk in my nightmares because its been so long since I've last had a dream....my body will always be stained but eventually you need to realize there are cats out there that will not push nor ask... and only see you as you and not what you see yourself as because of toms who cant keep it to themselves.... I couldn't look at my eldest kits because I was reminded of those toms.. and I regret it because most of them are gone with the thoughts I hated them for existing and... and that burns more then seeing myself as a revenge plot" she finally sat down, eyes closed ".... Don't do what I did.... Starclan punished me by letting me live for so long.... believe me when I say 200 plus moons of this anger and fear and pain rots you away.."